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x2xbandgeekx2xWeeee!! Snow day! Although thats not necessarily good... we have 3 snows days left now for the rest of the winter...but hopefully this will push things back enough that the chemistry test won't be on monday...I hate missing tests. Just finished rereading GoF...and I'm still bothered by this little bit...
"He said my blood would make him stronger that if he'd used someone else's," Harry told Dumbledore. "He said the protection my -- my mother left in me -- he'd have it too. And he was right -- he could touch me without hurting himself, he touched my face."
For a fleeting instant, Harry thought he saw a gleam of something like triumph in Dumbledore's eyes. But next second, Harry was sure he had imagined it, for when Dumbledore had returned to his seat behind the desk, he looked as old and weary as Harry had ever seen him. (pg.696)
It bugs me...why on earth would there be "a gleam of something like triumph" in his eyes? I can't believe theres only one more book!!! It'll be so sad when it comes out...it'll be over...athough theres still the movies! :)
Oh... that reminds...me it occured to me a few days ago while in the shower...when I get surgery, its going to have to be after memorial day...is that the holiday at the end of May? I think it is...anyways...I can't miss school because thats finals, and then I'll hafta play at graduation (well unless I'm ranked in the top 10, then I think I hafta be an usher...but I don't think my GPA is that high... Malerie said she was 17 I think which means I'm in the top 20 but I dunno about 10) So that impending doom will sorta ruin the wonderful celebration Marcy and I will be having because Danny will be graduating and Malerie will be devestated, and its really awful of us to do such a thing, but she doesn't have to know. We have been planning this for ages...no idea what movie we will see, but it'll probably be the last movie I see for a long time...which brings up my second horrifying point...it is very probable that I won't be able to see PotC 2 when it comes out in theaters... *sob* That will we awful...I mean it won't be the end of the world but I was really looking forward to seeing that this summer... was looking at the scoliosis communities here... and in the info it said that scoliosis affects something like 2-3% of the population...and its even less than that the need treatment. Just my luck. *sigh* I've gone back to thinking its awful. I've been telling myself that at this next appointment, we are just gonna hafta do it...actually say we are gonna do it...and really, I don't think theres any way out of this. If, by some miracle, it didn't get any worse...I would say no, becasue I'm not in any sort of excruciating pain, and theres no point in it if its just going to stay there....but theres really no guarentee that it wouldn't get worse and theres always a few degrees descrepency because of human error, and if I wait, then I screw up college which is worse than screwing up highschool.... but god, you read peoples comments about what they've been through and what they are still going through, and I just don't get why?!?!? Most people are already in pain when the get surgery and they are deformed or w/e and its a relief to get some sort of improvement....but its not very noticable at all that I have scoliosis...and my back does bug me now when I sit too long..like movies...and it bugs me if I walk/stand too long...like band...and it even bugs me at night...but it only really hurts when if I'm standing or sitting too much, and even then its not excruciating or anything...but if I get the surgrery it will be very painful in the begining, and I really don't think its ever going to be normal again...and my flexiblility will just be gone...not that I'm necessarily very flexible right now, but I never sit straight or anything...I curl up in chairs...right now I'm sitting in the computer chair w/one leg under me n the other is bent in front of me...neither are on the floor...and I wouldn't be able to do any of that...I remember someone saying you can't just sit up when you get up in the morning...you hvae to roll over to the side of the bed n put your feet down n sit up... and thats not really that big of a deal...but as my doctor keeps saying...its about your "quality of life"....not now, but later... well geee... I don't get surgery...its gets worse...it hurts...I get older ....it hurts more... i get surgery....its straight...assuming the operation goes right...it hurts insanely...it gets a bit better...still can't do anything...still bugs you when you do too much...when you get older...the strain on my remaining un-fused lumbar vertabrae gets worse... your spine can do funny things...very possible I have to get surgery to extend the fusion thingy down another...there goes whats left of my spine flexibilty...more issues...and something like 90% of people have back pain anyways when they get older anyways....and so I just wonder, why bother? I don't want go get old anyways...I've always thought I should either get accepted into a college and commit suicide, cuz hey...at least I know I could have done something...I've sort of extended that into graduate from college, get a job, and then commit suicide because after I get a job I don't have anything else I want to do w/my life. I don't want to get old and creaky and no way I'm going to a nursing home or anything...I'm not getting married...no way...and so whats left? why bother? Better to die happy. And so I've thought it would be much easier to just say, no surgery...when things get too bad, I kill myself..I'm happy... but I don't think that would go over well with anyone. And then theres the fact that I dunno if I would actually have the nerve to go through with it. Oh this is awful...
Okay, onto less depressing topics... I was playing Battle of the Heroes on the piano...my fingers are a bit sore...I should cut my nails...they're not that long but I can hear em clacking again...lol...I love our piano...it needs tuned though...anways, I was saying that I was playing that and I hit the last chord a little funny, and when I corrected it, I sorta made into a glissando type thing... I don't think thats the word, but it would be written with a vertical sorta squilly line before the notes...and it sounded like part of a melody type thing that I know is somewhere on the Mamma Mia soundtrack and that is in the background of Madonna's new song...and it really amused me...so I've been listening to the Mamma Mia soundtrack to try to find it...and I think the only place its there is on the thingy that they play after the intermission...Entr'acte is the name on the soundtrack... well that was rather pointless, but I was amused. I'm easily amused.
Speaking of easily amused... more icons... various subjects...not sure if I'll posting a link anywhere since most of them are very random...but if anyones looking...anybody can use em or edit them...just let me know because I get very excited when I realize somebody might actually use them. Like I said, easily amused. :)
PotC 2 - Dead Man's Chest
1.
Ocean's Eleven
2.
Hayden Christensen
3.
4.
Apolo Ohno (yep...still excited about the Olympics :D)
5.
6.
Random Subjects (a cute yellow lab pic I found last year...I need to make some of Keri sometime... a calf from our farm...well it was a calf last year...I'm sure its grown by now...and happy pillow! lmao It's Marcy's...stupid me ended up hitting save and not save as so I've lost the original...*sob* only have the one I framed...)
7.
8.
9.
10.
11.
ETA: gosh...very interesting stuff.... http://www.brannonbraga.com/forums/Topic391-5-1.aspx well for someone who likes Threshold anyway... *sob* morons. I loved that show. But, I will survive!
"No good sittin' worryin' abou' it...What's commin' will come, an' we'll meet it when it does."
- Hagrid (Goblet of Fire)
*nods* yep...good, solid advice...not thats its gonna do me any good... but still...
"He said my blood would make him stronger that if he'd used someone else's," Harry told Dumbledore. "He said the protection my -- my mother left in me -- he'd have it too. And he was right -- he could touch me without hurting himself, he touched my face."
For a fleeting instant, Harry thought he saw a gleam of something like triumph in Dumbledore's eyes. But next second, Harry was sure he had imagined it, for when Dumbledore had returned to his seat behind the desk, he looked as old and weary as Harry had ever seen him. (pg.696)
It bugs me...why on earth would there be "a gleam of something like triumph" in his eyes? I can't believe theres only one more book!!! It'll be so sad when it comes out...it'll be over...athough theres still the movies! :)
Oh... that reminds...me it occured to me a few days ago while in the shower...when I get surgery, its going to have to be after memorial day...is that the holiday at the end of May? I think it is...anyways...I can't miss school because thats finals, and then I'll hafta play at graduation (well unless I'm ranked in the top 10, then I think I hafta be an usher...but I don't think my GPA is that high... Malerie said she was 17 I think which means I'm in the top 20 but I dunno about 10) So that impending doom will sorta ruin the wonderful celebration Marcy and I will be having because Danny will be graduating and Malerie will be devestated, and its really awful of us to do such a thing, but she doesn't have to know. We have been planning this for ages...no idea what movie we will see, but it'll probably be the last movie I see for a long time...which brings up my second horrifying point...it is very probable that I won't be able to see PotC 2 when it comes out in theaters... *sob* That will we awful...I mean it won't be the end of the world but I was really looking forward to seeing that this summer... was looking at the scoliosis communities here... and in the info it said that scoliosis affects something like 2-3% of the population...and its even less than that the need treatment. Just my luck. *sigh* I've gone back to thinking its awful. I've been telling myself that at this next appointment, we are just gonna hafta do it...actually say we are gonna do it...and really, I don't think theres any way out of this. If, by some miracle, it didn't get any worse...I would say no, becasue I'm not in any sort of excruciating pain, and theres no point in it if its just going to stay there....but theres really no guarentee that it wouldn't get worse and theres always a few degrees descrepency because of human error, and if I wait, then I screw up college which is worse than screwing up highschool.... but god, you read peoples comments about what they've been through and what they are still going through, and I just don't get why?!?!? Most people are already in pain when the get surgery and they are deformed or w/e and its a relief to get some sort of improvement....but its not very noticable at all that I have scoliosis...and my back does bug me now when I sit too long..like movies...and it bugs me if I walk/stand too long...like band...and it even bugs me at night...but it only really hurts when if I'm standing or sitting too much, and even then its not excruciating or anything...but if I get the surgrery it will be very painful in the begining, and I really don't think its ever going to be normal again...and my flexiblility will just be gone...not that I'm necessarily very flexible right now, but I never sit straight or anything...I curl up in chairs...right now I'm sitting in the computer chair w/one leg under me n the other is bent in front of me...neither are on the floor...and I wouldn't be able to do any of that...I remember someone saying you can't just sit up when you get up in the morning...you hvae to roll over to the side of the bed n put your feet down n sit up... and thats not really that big of a deal...but as my doctor keeps saying...its about your "quality of life"....not now, but later... well geee... I don't get surgery...its gets worse...it hurts...I get older ....it hurts more... i get surgery....its straight...assuming the operation goes right...it hurts insanely...it gets a bit better...still can't do anything...still bugs you when you do too much...when you get older...the strain on my remaining un-fused lumbar vertabrae gets worse... your spine can do funny things...very possible I have to get surgery to extend the fusion thingy down another...there goes whats left of my spine flexibilty...more issues...and something like 90% of people have back pain anyways when they get older anyways....and so I just wonder, why bother? I don't want go get old anyways...I've always thought I should either get accepted into a college and commit suicide, cuz hey...at least I know I could have done something...I've sort of extended that into graduate from college, get a job, and then commit suicide because after I get a job I don't have anything else I want to do w/my life. I don't want to get old and creaky and no way I'm going to a nursing home or anything...I'm not getting married...no way...and so whats left? why bother? Better to die happy. And so I've thought it would be much easier to just say, no surgery...when things get too bad, I kill myself..I'm happy... but I don't think that would go over well with anyone. And then theres the fact that I dunno if I would actually have the nerve to go through with it. Oh this is awful...
Okay, onto less depressing topics... I was playing Battle of the Heroes on the piano...my fingers are a bit sore...I should cut my nails...they're not that long but I can hear em clacking again...lol...I love our piano...it needs tuned though...anways, I was saying that I was playing that and I hit the last chord a little funny, and when I corrected it, I sorta made into a glissando type thing... I don't think thats the word, but it would be written with a vertical sorta squilly line before the notes...and it sounded like part of a melody type thing that I know is somewhere on the Mamma Mia soundtrack and that is in the background of Madonna's new song...and it really amused me...so I've been listening to the Mamma Mia soundtrack to try to find it...and I think the only place its there is on the thingy that they play after the intermission...Entr'acte is the name on the soundtrack... well that was rather pointless, but I was amused. I'm easily amused.
Speaking of easily amused... more icons... various subjects...not sure if I'll posting a link anywhere since most of them are very random...but if anyones looking...anybody can use em or edit them...just let me know because I get very excited when I realize somebody might actually use them. Like I said, easily amused. :)
PotC 2 - Dead Man's Chest
1.
Ocean's Eleven
2.
Hayden Christensen
3.
4.Apolo Ohno (yep...still excited about the Olympics :D)
5.
6.Random Subjects (a cute yellow lab pic I found last year...I need to make some of Keri sometime... a calf from our farm...well it was a calf last year...I'm sure its grown by now...and happy pillow! lmao It's Marcy's...stupid me ended up hitting save and not save as so I've lost the original...*sob* only have the one I framed...)
7.
8. 9. 10.
11.ETA: gosh...very interesting stuff.... http://www.brannonbraga.com/forums/Topic391-5-1.aspx well for someone who likes Threshold anyway... *sob* morons. I loved that show. But, I will survive!
"No good sittin' worryin' abou' it...What's commin' will come, an' we'll meet it when it does."
- Hagrid (Goblet of Fire)
*nods* yep...good, solid advice...not thats its gonna do me any good... but still...
